hello colours

2009-10-15T06:12:00.000-07:00

1935 - o6.october 2009.
i love her so much. i miss her. no one knws how often i think of her and love her. i wanna hug her so tight and wont wanna let her go. i didnt even have the chance to say sorry and goodbye to her. its too late now,i didnt even get the chance to tell her i love her. shes gone and i still cant believe it. i still can feel her presence.
and all i can do now is sedekah for her AL-FATIHAH.

if you still have your grandparents around,treasure them before its too late.

2009-09-26T06:30:00.000-07:00

Let me just get this clear Syaza, i did not change, never,im still the old me. what made you say i changed?i change just because im not with you guys anymore? acting as if i miss you?
do you even know if i was acting? im still with you girls what. i did not forget you girls totally. is not me,its you girls. whenever i tried getting close with you girls, did you girls even layan me? you girls gave me a smile. and im standing there thinking of what to say,just like a perfect idiot.maybe you werent there. you said you love me,well then,do you really love me?

We did NOT say we do not want killer 5 anymore.

2009-09-15T05:37:00.000-07:00

people,here are the pictures i promised you.
only pictures ok? not the dance video,better not. you know,i know why. haha. enjoy the pictures!

2009-09-08T19:01:00.000-07:00

FORGET ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND AND MEET ME AT THE HOTEL :)
haha, klakar pe zul,khidir?

im soooooo bored now. september holiday, i have school everyday. sooo irritating,having english camp now.
oh ,btw, girls,boys, i change my email already.

its: nadzz_a@hotmail.com

anw,i gtg now,mr heng is here already.

Thank You MAFIA!

2009-09-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

Firstly,i would like to thank Sairi especially for helping us with the song and also the dance steps. Mafia stayed late at night just to teach us. killer 5 loves mafia, haha. we enjoyed it very much and the choreography was really beautiful. well Mafia, we miss you guys already.

my poor bestfriend has this panda eyes because of you! how could you, like two girls at the same time. well,theres only one thing that i can say. IT WAS STUPID OF YOU TO LET HER GO. Dumb dumb bitch.haha

anw,ill update the pictures later as i havent recieve the pictures from faed. Faed,i want the pictures,please?

2009-08-23T01:26:00.000-07:00

okay Syaza,lets update together. 21 was a really special day for my girlfriends. day were busy doing card for thier boyfriends. dilla,your next,i promise to remember the date for you. haha.

anw,exams are over and im sooooooo happy! anw, i dont know what to talk about.oh yaya,and to baby dilla, last long okay. syaza? best tak dapat kiss? haha. anw, ill end here.

i cant even end this cause i cant start. god,help me please!!

2009-07-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

Firstly,i would want to say sorry to Muhaimin. sorry bout the previous post. now i know the reason why you did all that,and said all those stupid things. i think you were just too angry. forgive me.

oh well,enough about that. i am sooo busy that i have no time to post. oh wait, im always busy. competition coming up and national day performance,and that's another problem.

guys,girls,correct me if im wrong. I realized that if you dance the best or maybe the besrt dancer you will always get the spotlight. i think thats a totally stupid question.
ive more to say,but i think i better stop now. toodles.

2009-07-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

okay syaza, you dont have to refresh the page.haha.
im gonna post. i know ive been missing for too long..
its just that dance mania is next week,so killer 5 , tengah sebok practice. and to some people,thank you for helping us with the steps.faed and friends. :)
wish us luck.

and bestfriend have someone new and im totally happy bout it. finally someone better. not like the previous bastard.

to you mr, you dont have to curse sampai gitu terok okay. who are you to tell my friend wthr she goes to hell or to heaven? fucker. for your info if you dont know, you are not the only one facing the same problem. i just think you are crazy. you are just not happy with her being happy, whats your problem ah? you should be happy for her. stupid.

okay,enough bout that crazy guy. i guess im gonna end here.
take care.

2009-05-17T07:17:00.000-07:00

i love it!
fed up ah aku, dier ni asyik nak ambik gambar je.

Anyways,exams are over! finally i can relax,after studying soo hard.
ive got nothing much to say actually,so till here.

2009-05-05T02:33:00.000-07:00

Everyone says love hurts,but that is not true.
Loneliness hurts.Rejection hurts.Losing someone hurts.
Envy hurts.Everyone gets these things confused with love,
but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up,
all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.
Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.
Sorry for the ugly rantings,this isn't gonna be a nice post.
why in the world am i always meeting the wrong guy?!
i hope this shit will end fast.

people who always pick on others just have problems with themselves.
although the truth hurts, you just have to accept it right?

and to you,i don't love you,get it? never. and just stop spreading rumors.
Anyways,wish me luck for my exams.

have a nice day.

2009-04-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

I got millions of things to talk about and i just don't know where to start.OK, lemme start with the SYF. Im proud to say that we got a god damn GOLD baby.yes! no regrets for practising really2 hard. to people who loved our dance.a very big thank you! i love you all.

ok,lifes been great. had lotssa good time.

and a special note to someone.if you think that im ugly and you are unhappy with how i look or the way i dress and the shoes i wear or how big i am,stay away from me. go and find someone better. and dont ever think you are sooo great.well, you are not that good either. you boast to much about yr self. you are just nothing. thats the truth.

2009-04-13T06:12:00.000-07:00

Tomorrows SYF. time flies tooo fast. so girls, and oh ya boys. let us all do our best. good luck for tomorrow. lets make people proud.

and i guess, were drifting apart. (and for some people who tak faham what im talking bout, its ok.)

good luck for tomorrow.

2009-04-09T06:07:00.001-07:00

I've just got too much to say and i don't even know where to start.life's been pretty boring. i go to school, and i get than i go home. and to you Mr, i guess i just have to forget you and move on. im just being like a fool waiting for you.

Some people just cant appreciate things they have. i just don't understand some people. They have everything but yet they are not happy with things that they have and they keep on complaining.

one day, i just hope that my mom will just understand me. you see, i cant be with her all the time. in front of her eyes. this is soo frustrating.

anw, i cant wait for SYF. so people,wish me luck. ill end here. ill post the pictures nxt time.

2009-03-27T05:48:00.000-07:00

im sooo embarrassed. i dont think i should post it here. it'll be a short post.
i dont have the mood. and thanks for making me feel that way.

2009-03-18T19:21:00.000-07:00

hey people. sorry for not updating my blog.i just don't have the time,so now its my free time. i just came back from camp. it was OK. for those who did not try the high elements,you are just wasting the 77 dollars. hey babe, relax ah, maybe the boy picked on you because yr pretty. diorang malas nak layan the other girls yang pakai seluar pendek. lagi2 that night dapat one BIG HUG. tsk! haha.

SYF is just around the corner. went ucc to practice and today im going again. stresssss.

* eh to you eh perempuan, you can call me whatever you want kau nak panggil aku nenek or whatsoever its your problem. but i guess you have problem with your own body that you have to comment bout me. look into the mirror and see, siape yang macam nenek. kalau dah gangster msia tu buat lah care gangster masia. and you better look at whose butt is bigger before you comment about poeples butt. haha.

orang-orang yg hate tag kan, actually they have problem with themselves that's why they find problem with other people.haha.

2009-02-11T04:12:00.000-08:00

is it wrong to make your bestfriend happy?
i was just trying to help. im just tired of helping poeple but they dont appreaciate it.
i promise, i will keep my hands off darling.
good luck.

2009-02-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

im just tired of everything. it just never seems to work.
and when you look around, you see poeple, with the one they love.
it hurts sometimes.
and to my darling.

i hope you will make a wise decision.
wanna bet weather he will give you white roses or not?
haha.
if you loose, must blanja me. haha
dreamm on la nadzirah bout celebrating valentines with him.

2009-02-06T05:41:00.000-08:00

its been awhile since i update my blog. been busy lately. all i did for the past few days was, went to school, cca, back home, homework( which i cant be bothered to do) and sleep. i've got no life. and my hand phone is dead.

and without realizing, its already February. time flies sooo fast. and i've turn 14 already. i feel soo old. my birthday was a boring one, my mom didnt even wish me a happy birthday or hugg or kiss me. only my father wished me a happy birthday. how sad. she wished me a happy birthday only through sms.. believe it or not, faed was the FIRST one to wish me a happy birthday and HE was the FIRST one to give me my birthday present. it was a rip curl bag,and im sure its pretty expensive. i owe you a present too.girlfriends, thank you for the birthday wish. and tomorrow im going to celebrate my birthday. my parents are bringing me to johor. AND THATS ALL. this is soooo frustrating. its that all i get for my birthday? boringggg. but i guess, i should me greatful. it just dosent seem right. and im soo not looking foward to tomorrow.

theres a misunderstanding going on. when can it end? stop blaming people.

and to my dear darling, the decision is all in yr hands. make up yr mind. and do whats right.
and just don't disappoint him alrite?

and i hope its not just a one way love.please?
its a long post today, i will upload the pictures some other day, i promise.

2009-01-31T20:43:00.000-08:00

freedom of love. one way love. people might just think that im crazy. out of my mind. i cant think properly now. and im lost. i dont know what to do

I’m alone in all my decisions.

I eat and eat and eat.

2009-01-24T02:13:00.000-08:00

hello. Happy Chinese new year to all!
macam biase, standard. lazy to post and nothing to post about. school was alrite so far. but everythings changing. lotssa homework. try not to slack. this year, streaming year. soo, all the best to me. going malaysia for the next three days. will miss you darling.

2009-01-01T01:59:00.000-08:00

And as you can see, im getting rounder and rounder.,haha. schools starting tomorrow and im excited. why cant they just make it on monday. i wonder why. yesterday night conferenced with the girls till countdown. kalau skolah dah start, im afraid i wont update my blog often. till here.

2008-12-26T05:59:00.000-08:00

I bet todays post gonna be exciting. a few days ago, i went lunch with my mom to a restaurant( which i will not reveal the name of the restaurant cause i dont think its a good idea). i ordered
kuay teow( i dont knw how to spell). haha. the serving was quiet alot and i could not finish it so i asked my mother to finish it up for me cause it will be a waste not to finish it up and, its expensive. she ate, but half way she stopped. i asked her whats wrong. she showed me something, and i was shocked. guess what? theres a worm in the food!!

showed the waiter, and got 50% discount for
all the food and i got an extra mango pudding for free. haha
but im just afraid that i could have eaten the worm. mane lah tau,kalau ade lebih dari satu. scary. haha
so next time, check befor you eat. haha. jangan jadi mcm aku.

2008-12-09T06:19:00.001-08:00

my biggest mistake was loving you, ohh mann, stupid me.
fuck you.

2008-12-07T05:03:00.000-08:00

im just looking for a miracle to happen.
btw, tomorrows

HARI RAYA HAJI. selamat hari raya haji.

2008-12-02T19:08:00.003-08:00

MONDAY ;4.47

puteri said that shes afraid she might become a lesbian 0.0??
OMG OMG! and ill be her lesbian partner? but now were already acting like one. haha. soo what? and regina, you can say that too. haha.

2008-11-28T05:06:00.002-08:00

Ok,actually ive got nothing to post,haha. im bored.-__-. Sooo i would like to take this opportunity to congratulate
MR Barack Obama.

2008-11-19T06:10:00.001-08:00

and you lied,straight to my face.* just came back from holiday. too tired to post now, ill post next time, whennnn i feel like it. ok?

2008-11-14T05:38:00.001-08:00

TGIF!! will not be posting for the next for or maybe five days. going for a holiday, to malaysia .haha,again-_-.
will miss dance practice on tuesday. HAIYO... thats all i have to say. c ya, byee. :]

2008-11-11T21:53:00.000-08:00

well, basically. nothing much exciting things have been going around in my life to far. its boringg. this super bad runny nose has been killing me since sunday, but its getting better. lucky me. thats all i have to say, and have a nice day.

2008-11-08T22:11:00.000-08:00

should i trust u or should i not trust u? its hard. please dont deny it, if its really2 u,just tell me the truth. so you've got someone new huh. crap.

2008-10-22T06:26:00.000-07:00

sooo stupid of you to say sorry to the wrong person.

2008-10-22T06:10:00.000-07:00

you are driving me crazy!
im always waiting for your call.
im sooo frustrated.
i hate to say this, but i miss you.
so please, call me will you?

2008-10-20T05:07:00.000-07:00

To everyone, Selamat Hari Raya Aldilfitri!
selamat hari raya babes.

selamat hari raya poeple!

2008-10-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

hello people,
I've just deleted my old blog, its full of rubbish. sooo. i decided to create a new blog. seriously, i hate people who judge me without even knowing me, and i hate it when, people talk bad about me. and lastly, this is my blog, please show some respect, if you wanna spam, please remember to put ur name yah.